Do you ever just want to know? I like to plan. I like having a roadmap, and I like being able to neatly arrange my schedule and my priorities. Make a list, and, oh, the fun of being able to neatly check things off. In addition to the purely practical aspects of life, this can also be translated into the spiritual and emotional. I like to know what I’m feeling, why I’m feeling it, and how to categorize those feelings so I can prepare myself, file things in the appropriate categories, and move on. Oh, that life were so easy!
Answers. We need answer. We want answers. What is the will of God for my life? Where will I be in two years? Do I wait or move forward? Do I keep pursuing, or is it okay to lay it aside and move on? What really is the desire of my heart? Questions. Questions that need answers. Or do they? I ask myself, why? Why do I need to know? Is it truly necessary, or is it just my desire to be in control? If God has led you to where you are, do you think He will suddenly cease to be faithful.
We do have to make decisions though…and that can be hard if you are like me and tend to second guess yourself. I often find quotes that make me laugh because they depict my life so perfectly! One of my favorites is “My decision making greatly resembles that of a squirrel trying to cross the road.” And another of my favorites has to be “My life is a romantic comedy minus the romance, and basically just me laughing at my own jokes.” *ahem* but I digress…Seriously, though, I think that inside of God’s will He gives us a lot of room to move around and make decisions without being worried about missing “God’s perfect plan for our lives.” We can spend so much time and energy planning and wondering about the future that we completely miss what God is calling us to do now.
What is the desire of your heart? I’ve struggled over the years to figure that out. It’s good to know. It’s good to know what makes you “tick,” what you love, and where your passions are. God often uses those things to guide our lives. But it isn’t always easy to figure it out, which can result in a lot of questions. However, I do think that the Devil can use that to distract us from the calling God has for us in the present. Psalm 37:21 clearly tells us to “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” He doesn’t hold out on us, but we have to put forth the effort to focus on Him.
But maybe we are also asking the wrong questions. Asking isn’t bad, but where is our focus? Should we spend so much time focused on us and our needs, desires, and imperfections, or should we really be figuring out who and what God is. Maybe instead of asking “What is the desire of my heart” or “What makes me tick,” we should be focused on the heart of God. What is He feeling? What are His passions? What are the desires of His heart? We are to be like Him, so wouldn’t it make sense that we spend more time studying Him than trying to fix our own pathetic selves?
Delight yourself in Him. Stop planning, scheduling, and categorizing, and just feel the sun on your face as you walk. Worship. Let your heart be lifted upward. Let your gaze be turned from your own desires and look into the eyes of the people around you. Ask for the strength to move beyond your own questions and look at the people around you the way Jesus does. I believe that the more we simply gaze on Him and seek to know His heart, the more we will take on His burdens and share in His heart, and that is what matters more than our own longings and desires.
The great big world around us. There is SO much going on that we just don’t take the time to see. In our own little communities we insulate ourselves and our minds. God’s heart is for ALL the nations of the world. We may not be able to go and physically make a difference, but that doesn’t mean we can’t desperately pray for those people, and beg God to give us His heart for the people of the world. It doesn’t mean we can’t work against injustice on a smaller scale, and that we can’t sound the alarm from right where we are. It really doesn’t matter whether or not you live in Jerusalem, Israel or Nappanee, Indiana. The headlines are the same, and God hears the prayers from both places. And not just on a global scale, but look around your town, your home, your place of influence. Where are you now? There is a mission for you there. Get close to God’s heart and find His passion.
When my passions and struggles are only focused around myself and my life, needs, and desires, I lose sight of the goal, the vision, and the real meaning of this story. We are a people called to delight in our Savior, and then boldly share that delight with others. In so doing, I think we will find that the deepest desires of our hearts are being met in ways we never could have imagined. And then we don’t have to have all the answers. We can simply know Him and rest in Delight.